My truth

I’ve decided to jump on the bandwagon and write the truth. Well, my truth, that is. For 30 days, I’ll be following this list and writing whatever comes to my mind. Will it be life-changing? Will I discover things about myself I never knew? Who knows. I can’t promise it’ll be entertaining, but I can promise that it’ll be the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.

Topic 1: Something you hate about yourself.

I despise using the word “hate” to describe anything. I feel that “hate” is way too final for someone as indecisive as myself. However, there is one thing that I can, without a shadow of a doubt, say that I hate about myself.

I am a people pleaser.

Now, maybe this doesn’t really seem like such a big deal to you, but when you spend your life trying to make other people happy, the person that ultimately loses out, is yourself.  I hate that I feel like I always have to bend to other people’s wishes and achieve other people’s expectations of myself, in order to live a fulfilled life. I let (a few) people walk all over me in an attempt to get them to, what? Like me? I forgive people that have harmed me without respecting myself enough to say when enough is enough.

Some other random things that I don’t particularly like about myself? My bumpy nose, my baby hairs, my indecisiveness, the fact that I’m apathetic about a lot of topics that are important and matter, my scars (I don’t know where most of them come from), my half-removed tattoo, my ability to wrack up money on a credit card like nobody’s business, and my inability to easily let things (namely, certain people) go.

I swear.

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2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. audrey22
    Sep 26, 2010 @ 18:45:08

    Yay another person doing the list!! Lol I saw your comment on my blog and came over to see your truth.

    We have two things in common being a people pleaser and being indecisive. Being a people pleaser can really drain you. I never realised how much I was shortchanging myself by constantly trying to please everyone. Its definitely something you have to work on (putting yourself first) but its so worth it in the end.

    I am miss indecisive! So I understand how frustrating it can be. I’m still working on that.

    Anyways I’m looking forward to reading more of your truths!

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  2. amber
    Sep 30, 2010 @ 14:40:43

    UGH. I, too, am a people pleaser. To a large and very definite fault. Truthfully, I’d rather be a self-serving bitch. I bet it’s way more fun.

    Reply

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